McMath Moments

Balance

There isn't much of it during a deployment.

I just got a sweet note in the mail and it said, "I admire your strength".  

The irony that this card arrived today wasn't lost on me.  

The truth is I cry a lot.  

Because I can't do everything I want to do, or even what I need to do.   

And when things go wrong, it feels like I have a mountain to climb to get things 'right' again. 

Today I cleaned up a lot of dog shit from my carpets. 

I wanted to scream.

 I did.

Then I cried.

I wanted to murder the offending canine.

I didn't.

After the shit was cleaned the puppy came in with an epic level of muddy feet.

I cried

I wanted to murder her.

I didn't.

I gave her a bath.

I had not had coffee yet.

Or breakfast.

So I showered, made coffee, had breakfast, then ran to the store for more carpet cleaning supplies.

Then I mowed my yard.

There is no balance.  I fake it.

I take an adorable photo of the puppy....and share that instead.